I want to put it out there for you all to read, and I have been mentioning it to many people in hopes that my speaking my committment will help me keep my committment.
Over the past year or so... don't quite know how long, I have put on a few too many pounds - about 25-30 pounds. I think it pretty much started after I went back to work the last time... It was an unhappy place for me to be. Lots and lots of stress. So I ate! A little chocolate makes ya feel better mid day. But those few M&Ms turned into a bowl of ice cream at night or a batch of cookies for Jeremy and I to share after we put the kids to bed. BAD HABITS!
After I quit working in the late spring, the M&Ms went away, but the other things didn't. The fall brought a few changes for us, and a lot of emotional eating for me. We are having trouble financially, I had a little "emotional crisis" (still working through some of that - will have to blog more on that some other time...), Jeremy took on a second job, finances are still yucky, so I just eat away my pain and lonliness.
The problem is, OF COURSE IT DOESN'T WORK! It really only makes things worse I found. So I eat, I gain weight, my clothes don't fit, I can't really afford to buy too many things to expand my wardrobe for my expanding waistline, I feel like crap 'cuz I know I am fat. Then instead of doing something about it, I allow myself to wallow in the crappy feelings, I stop wearing make up, start getting lazier, make excuses, enjoy something sweet. Vicious cycle!
WELL, I'm sick of it! I really don't feel good. I know I am lugging around more pounds than my body should. I am very out of shape. I am tired because I am not doing any thing. I am bloated constantly from the amount of Dr. Pepper I consume.
SO! Here it goes! For Christmas, I asked for many things to get myself prepared for getting back in shape and loosing some weight. I now have at my disposal new gym shoes, new work out pants that actually fit (and a great shirt my sis found on the clearance rack for $2.50 - "great gym shirt," she said), some 3 lb. weights, Jillian Michaels' 30-Day Shred DVD. I dusted off my fitness mat and resistance bands and created a play list on my ipod (I got new ear buds too!). Thank goodness we never got around to cancelling that gym membership!
Last night, I worked out with Jillian! It was pretty good! :) Don't feel too bad today. I have a date with Jillian again as soon as I grab the laundry out of the dryer and finish this blog. Tomorrow morning, I am hitting the gym as soon as I drop Zachary at school.
My plan is to work out with Jillian for 30 days straight and go to the gym Mon-Wed-Fri.
I have also cut Dr. Pepper. I know for some it might sound silly to feel deprived of something like soday, but this is going to be a hard one for me. Last night at dinner was my last one. So, going forward lots of water and ice tea. I read somewhere that it is good to have ice cold water because your body will burn calories warming it up. Sounds kinda like someone desperate to burn a few extra calories, but cold water is good!
I will be asking Jeremy, my mom or my sis to take "Before" pictures of me (though I don't know if I will ever be brave enough to post them here) and do some measurements. After all, there isn't a magic number on the scale that I want to see. Really for me it is about loosing the extra weight and feeling good again! My guess is that is going to take about 25 pounds.
Ok, time to get the laundry out of the dryer and lace up my shoes, Jillian is waiting for me! :)
Over the past year or so... don't quite know how long, I have put on a few too many pounds - about 25-30 pounds. I think it pretty much started after I went back to work the last time... It was an unhappy place for me to be. Lots and lots of stress. So I ate! A little chocolate makes ya feel better mid day. But those few M&Ms turned into a bowl of ice cream at night or a batch of cookies for Jeremy and I to share after we put the kids to bed. BAD HABITS!
After I quit working in the late spring, the M&Ms went away, but the other things didn't. The fall brought a few changes for us, and a lot of emotional eating for me. We are having trouble financially, I had a little "emotional crisis" (still working through some of that - will have to blog more on that some other time...), Jeremy took on a second job, finances are still yucky, so I just eat away my pain and lonliness.
The problem is, OF COURSE IT DOESN'T WORK! It really only makes things worse I found. So I eat, I gain weight, my clothes don't fit, I can't really afford to buy too many things to expand my wardrobe for my expanding waistline, I feel like crap 'cuz I know I am fat. Then instead of doing something about it, I allow myself to wallow in the crappy feelings, I stop wearing make up, start getting lazier, make excuses, enjoy something sweet. Vicious cycle!
WELL, I'm sick of it! I really don't feel good. I know I am lugging around more pounds than my body should. I am very out of shape. I am tired because I am not doing any thing. I am bloated constantly from the amount of Dr. Pepper I consume.
SO! Here it goes! For Christmas, I asked for many things to get myself prepared for getting back in shape and loosing some weight. I now have at my disposal new gym shoes, new work out pants that actually fit (and a great shirt my sis found on the clearance rack for $2.50 - "great gym shirt," she said), some 3 lb. weights, Jillian Michaels' 30-Day Shred DVD. I dusted off my fitness mat and resistance bands and created a play list on my ipod (I got new ear buds too!). Thank goodness we never got around to cancelling that gym membership!Last night, I worked out with Jillian! It was pretty good! :) Don't feel too bad today. I have a date with Jillian again as soon as I grab the laundry out of the dryer and finish this blog. Tomorrow morning, I am hitting the gym as soon as I drop Zachary at school.
My plan is to work out with Jillian for 30 days straight and go to the gym Mon-Wed-Fri.
I have also cut Dr. Pepper. I know for some it might sound silly to feel deprived of something like soday, but this is going to be a hard one for me. Last night at dinner was my last one. So, going forward lots of water and ice tea. I read somewhere that it is good to have ice cold water because your body will burn calories warming it up. Sounds kinda like someone desperate to burn a few extra calories, but cold water is good!I will be asking Jeremy, my mom or my sis to take "Before" pictures of me (though I don't know if I will ever be brave enough to post them here) and do some measurements. After all, there isn't a magic number on the scale that I want to see. Really for me it is about loosing the extra weight and feeling good again! My guess is that is going to take about 25 pounds.
Ok, time to get the laundry out of the dryer and lace up my shoes, Jillian is waiting for me! :)
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